Learning the things you don’t know
“Well, you’ve been here for over a month. What have you learned?” This question really made me think. I had been here for awhile, why couldn’t I come up with an answer? Sometimes I feel like the most difficult thing about Crossroads is discovering all the things I don’t know. From little things like “where are we staying this weekend?” to days that lead you to question why you’re here at all. Some days (or nights in my case) can be particularly frustrating, things can become so unscheduled or unclear that you just want to discover something that makes sense. A reason that the RV broke down again, why yet another friend had to leave the walk, or how you’ve ended up on night shift for five out of six weeks.
And then you remember.
Offer it up.
It’s funny how things become clear at four in the morning.
What I’ve learned on Crossroads is that I am still learning, and I’m ok with that. I’m learning that sometimes the best way to help others, it to be willing to accept Their help. That the people around me who bother me the most, are the most like me. That loving people can hurt, but it’s worth it every time. That you can make a difference, but only once you let God make a difference in you. And that its impossible to stay frustrated while your spinning, or singing, or dancing, or laughing.